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徐霁点头。

慕言何:“是因为你写的那篇《未寄出的信》。那篇小说里的感情流露很真实,不像虚构。我当时就在想,能写出这种感情的人,一定经历过很深刻的东西,不像我在这个世界里所经历的那样虚无缥缈。”

慕言何:“那我告诉你。”

“你那个世界,是什么样的?”

好话都给慕言何说完了,徐霁实在不知该说什么来表忠心,只好擦干净乱七八糟的脸凑上去主动亲慕言何。

“您不生气吗?”

徐霁感觉自己快要溺水了,溺在慕言何的温柔乡里。

徐霁摇头。

他捧着徐霁的脸亲了又亲,摸他哭得有些红肿的眼皮,擦去他眼角残余的泪。

徐霁噎了一下:“啊。”

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“我爸妈走得早。”徐霁说,“小时候经常寄人篱下,在几个亲戚家轮流住过几年。他们对我不算坏,但也……不算好。”

慕言何满意了:“那就好。”

徐霁小心翼翼地说:“虽然……我们现在在谈恋爱,但我有时候还是会觉得,这是你的房子,你的世界,我只是一个外人而已。”

“不管这个世界是谁创造的,不管我曾经在你的笔下是什么样子,现在我是真实的,你是真实的,我们在一起,也是真实的。”

“可是……”

亲着亲着,方才糟乱的情绪就顺下来了。但还有一个问题,一直在他心里打转。

“这些对我来说,才是最重要的。”

sp; “我问的不是那种喜欢。”慕言何像是看穿了他的心思一般,“我问你,你喜欢真实的我吗?”

“就是……”徐霁扭捏了一会,“我把您写成那样。没有朋友,没有任何感情线,每天除了工作就是工作……”

“喜欢的。”他刚刚哭得太猛,现在说话还忍不住打哭嗝,有点尴尬但还是继续道,“……特别喜欢。”

徐霁:“我原来的世界?”

徐霁犹豫了一下,还是开口了:“慕先生。”

越说越觉得无聊,徐霁感觉自己未穿书前的人生简直可以称作“无聊”的代名词。

徐霁想了想,老实点头:“嗯,因为我自己没谈过恋爱,不知道怎么给别人写感情线,之前试过写感觉写得太难看了,又觉得主角太强了不需要那些……”

“……再之后就成为习惯了,您…你如果不喜欢,我会改的。”

“你不是外人。”慕言何认真道,“你是我的恋人,是我选择、选择我的人,是我想要共度余生的人。”

“你刚才说,没想过我会变成真实的人,只知道我曾在你笔下的设定,对吗?”

慕言何默然片刻,旋即低声唤他:“徐霁。”

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慕言何静静等他说下去。

“记住了吗?”

徐霁从他怀里钻出来,对上慕言何的眼睛,只见他眼底饱含温柔与认真,不杂半分责怪与质问。

“我……”他抿了抿唇,“从小就这样。”

“嗯?”

“那就是对的。”慕言何说,“你按照自己当时的想法写,没有错。”

“反正就是,要懂事,要听话,要小心说话做事,不能给人添麻烦。”

其实只是个人习惯……这个称呼他从第一次见面就叫到现在,从来没想过慕言何会在意这个。

“嗯。”

“原来如此。”慕言何若有所思地点头,旋即忽然问,“那你为什么总称呼我为‘您’?我们已经在一起了,没必要这么生疏。你可以直接叫我名字。”

“徐霁。”慕言何打断他的多愁善感,“你知道我是什么时候确定,你就是创造者的吗?”

慕言何沉默了几秒,然后说:“你写的时候,是不是觉得这样最好?”

他扯了扯嘴角,苦笑道,“对长辈要用‘您’,对帮过我的人要用‘您’,对每一个可能收留我的人都要用‘您’。”

慕言何挑眉:“生什么气?”

徐霁沉思了一会,慢慢说:“就是一个很普通的世界。和我们现在所在的差不多……有高楼大厦,车水马龙,各种人过着各自的生活。也有像我这样的小作者,写写东西赚点稿费,偶尔打打工,吃了上顿没下顿……”

徐霁呆呆地看着他,一边感动一边思维发散。

“不管你在那本书里怎么写我,现在的我,是喜欢你,喜欢徐霁的慕言何,是想和你一直在一起的慕言何,是希望你能把这个地方当成归属和‘家’的慕言何。”

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