第49章(2/2)

&esp;&esp;像一个解不开的死结——他曾经很努力解开过,却只是把双手磨破,鲜血流淌一地,指缝里都变红,还是解不开。或许死结打在心里而不是身上,但喻越乐笨拙又胆小,不敢把手伸进心脏里找死结到底在哪,更别说要解开。

&esp;&esp;刑游正直地目视前方不看他:“嗯。”

&esp;&esp;那么轻的一口气,却沉甸甸地一直一直压在了喻越乐的肩上。

&esp;&esp;喻越乐破涕为笑出声音,从这个被子寿司卷里抻出手,也去给刑游抹眼泪,问:“你哭什么?”

&esp;&esp;喻越乐听到刑游对他说:“不知道有没有跟你说过,但是我现在很想对你说——乐乐,你已经做的很好了。你是个特别棒的小孩。我为你感到骄傲。”

&esp;&esp;“没有关系的,这些事情都不是很严重的事情,你没有犯什么天塌了的大错,何况无论做了什么天都不会真的塌下来,别担心。不要一直陷入自我ph和监视。比起做得好,我更希望你开心。”

&esp;&esp;喻越乐这样通通说出来也有点不好意思,把头埋在刑游怀里,声音闷闷的,好在没有再哭了,讲的断断续续颠三倒四,刑游却听得很清楚,仿佛牵着喻越乐的手又陪他从小到大走了一路。低下头发现双脚鲜血淋漓,一路走过来好不容易。

&esp;&esp;刑游把喻越乐从被子里揪出来穿衣服,喻越乐擦掉泪痕一边穿衣服一边笑,很坏地把头凑到刑游面前:“这么纯情啊?”

&esp;&esp;“而且,永远不要去比较痛苦。每个人的的痛苦都是不一样的,不是别人那么痛了,你的痛就算不上痛。”刑游很轻地,郑重地在喻越乐的唇上落下一个吻,像某种印章,只是贴上去,嘴唇碰嘴唇,一触即离。

&esp;&esp;第38章

&esp;&esp;喻越乐穿好睡衣,开始很嚣张:“看都全看过了摸也摸个遍了,之前什么都行,怎么现在不行了——你不会”

&esp;&esp;他便以晴朗的心态去思考,很快得出了结论,说:“不是,这是很大的事,因为他们把我害惨了。”

&esp;&esp;于是喻越乐便也很认真地想了想。把自己心里最无法释怀的事情全盘托出之后有种轻松的感觉,喻越乐想到雨后初晴这个词。

&esp;&esp;“为什么要跟别人比较,为什么要做到最好?这个世界上根本没有任何人可以做到最好。”刑游一字一句地看着喻越乐,很郑重地告诉他,“接纳和正视自己的错误和脆弱,学会怎么爱自己和拥抱自己是很大的事情。相反的,忘记戴红领巾和打碎一个碗都是很小的事情,它们真真是再小不过了。乐乐。”

&esp;&esp;他心疼喻越乐,真到了有些生理性心脏绞痛和喘不过气的感觉。一个情感缺失症病人居然也有一天能体会所谓的痛彻心扉,居然也静静掉着眼泪停不下来,真是不可思议。刑游想,原来这是爱。爱是一种你看见他掉眼泪你也会心痛的感情。

&esp;&esp;喻越乐却每次都只能成绩擦边,到最后自己都想哭。有一次班主任喊他进办公室谈话,望着体育成绩,最后却只是叹了一口气。

&esp;&esp;刑游的眸光很沉,反过来将喻越乐的手握住,有些过分用力地紧握着,带着喻越乐摸上自己胸口处,用喻越乐的手掌心去感受自己的心跳脉搏。

&esp;&esp;可是喻越乐怎么那么坚强。刑游感到心疼。

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&esp;&esp;刑游的声音低低地,讲:“这里痛。”

&esp;&esp;喻越乐感到崩溃,却没有办法逃避,难道要回家跟父母讲他一跑步就不舒服,询问他们可不可以不要参加体育中考了吗。那个时候他甚至不知道身体那么多的毛病其实被称作“躯体化”。

&esp;&esp;喻越乐懵懵懂懂地,抬起头,跟刑游对视,眼睛很亮,像宇宙里最明亮的星星,让人一抬头就要看见。刑游捏着这枚最亮星星的下巴,神情很认真,说:“回答我。”

&esp;&esp;喻越乐泣不成声,泪流满面。

&esp;&esp;刑游真的忍不住,又低下头亲了喻越乐的脑袋,问:“你现在也还觉得这些是小事吗?可是乐乐,这些都让你很痛苦。”

&esp;&esp;“对。”刑游轻轻地擦去喻越乐的泪痕,又亲了亲他的额头,讲:“这些都是很严重的大事。所有人都忽略你的身心健康,更可怕的是你自己都不在意。”

&esp;&esp;喻越乐剖心疗伤要源源不断地哭就算了,他在一片泪眼朦胧里抬起头,却很惊奇地发现刑游的眼角居然湿透了,脸上也还有一行明晃晃的水痕。

&esp;&esp;中考要体测计入成绩,每天都要训练一千米长跑,喻越乐每次都会心率飙到一百多,几乎窒息,气喘吁吁,眼神都开始发飘发黑,还有耳鸣。老师拿着喇叭催促他,尖锐的哨子音穿破耳膜,跟着耳鸣一起刺着他。

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